Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Today is the 18th june, 2008 night time 2.45am now.. I couldn't sleep again after wad has happened jus now.. Still thinking in deep thoughts of wad i n him have said, wondering wad i did wrong again haiz.. Am i so useless guys?? Sometimes i really doubt myself cant b a good lady no matter how much i have changed.. Maybe inside his heart, im not as perfect as wad he think i can be ba.. I really feel so helpless that i can make my decision wise n firm n make my stand for me, which i think he will look down on.. Maybe i always make him worried den he's angry den i always think he's always mad at me n all dat make him feel bad too.. Haiz i really hope he dun always hide these things inside him n tell me abt it.. If not i won noe wad he wants wad he thinking... Haiz.. I really wanna change but i dunno how to.. When i dunno wad i should change n where to start.. I like got no goals to achieve like this how cuz i dunno where to head to.. I need to noe wad is wrong den i can head to the turning point right dear? I jus wanna noe where i did wrong again... Im really upset to see we both always lidat quarel, u think we both will like things lidat to happen always ma? Y cant u jus tell me where i did wrong even i did wrong again pls tell me.. U noe i dun think as well as others, i need time to learn n all dat ar.. Haiz.. *crying in the heart* Sorry for wad i have done wrong, been with him den i noe i have so many flaws n not a good gal le, i have so much to change, dunno when den i can stand up again... No matter wad i jus wish my dear all the best always n stay cheerful =)
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