Thursday, May 8, 2008
Hahaz.. Long time no do posting le.. =p Hmm today is the 9th of may which is huiying's bdae hahaz haven wish her happy bdae yet =x Tml must wish her le ^^ Now is abt to 3am le, haiz couldn't sleep.. Been thinking too much i guess.. I'm sorry dear for staying up so late if u are looking at my blog too.. I really dun mean to make u worry for me de.. I been upsetting over ur words thats y i wan u to change away ur temper as well. Maybe im still not good enough for u or haven do enough for u ba =( Sometimes i just wonder how can i make u change away ur attitude towards others, when no matter how much i say n do for u oso does not help u, felt useless at times when i see u can attend to ur customers so well when i cant do so much things like u can.. I just wanna pei u by ur side always no matter what u r facing, we can face it together de ar.. I noe i have many problems to u in regarding on my family's new house, i noe i shouldn't bother u on those things le but i just get too tied down by my family ba.. They keep telling me this n that and i feel kinda annoyed, everything oso find me u noe?? I feel that i have nth to do with all these things, i dunno anything abt the hse things de ar n really dunno wad to do den tell u de.. I dun mean to bring u more problems and make u so tiring de.. I dunno who to face these problems to, im really sorry.. That time i wan u to call my parents is to clear things with dem, tell dem straight and not go on like this and let dem see u that way as things are.. Avoiding it doesn't help ma so just wan u to clear away the problems by urself so that they won't think that u r not responsible or what ar.. I kept telling u i will be by ur side means i will ar no matter wad happens im still always there for u.. I have take in so much, give in so much do so much for u, u tink i dunno u care for me too ma, u tink i never care for u ma?? M i really so not a understanding person to u? I kept quiet doesn't mean i dunno or dun understand u, just that sometimes ur words hurt me too much till i dunno wad to say le, do u noe that? =( I noe u care for me, worry for me cuz of my health, i will try to take care of myself when i recover k? What can i still do to not make u worry my dear? I noe i had always been upsetting u too, i still rmb the day u cried, i was so upset, who mean the most to me is u le u noe ma? =( I just wan to see u happy always and not that moodless face or angry face of urs, how will i b happy to carry on my life positively like this dear? Not all things always look on the bad side den have to tink on the bad side always de.. If u keep thinking that way, doesn't it make things worse and always dull with a face? No matter what happens stay cheerful and i will always be k? =)
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